When I was younger I was never the girl that played makeup
as a kid. I Probably didn’t really get my first lip gloss till about 12 , and of
course it was only clear (boring I know. ) See my mom , was more conservative
when I was a kid , I wasn’t allowed to wear color nail polish , color lipstick
or makeup. I used to be so annoyed that she wouldn’t let me buy red lipstick. I
felt like I was the only girl that had these restrictions back then. Now that I
am older, and I look back on that time period I realize that those things were
not that big of a deal. I also am glad that I did not wear makeup back then, I didn’t
really start wearing makeup till about 3 years ago. Now I know everything there
is to know about makeup and can easily spend hours watching YouTube makeup tutorials,
and recreating makeup looks I see on Instagram (im quite obsessed with makeup
now ). Not only can makeup be expensive but as a pre-teen and teenager there
was no point of it , and not having it did not make me feel less pretty.
I have to admit when I was younger , peoples opinions and society's image of beauty did have affects on me. In middle and high school I used to be insecure about my height , weight (being too skinny ) . Now those things don't affect me at all , and I am comfortable with the skin im in. The amount of insecurities may have decreased since I was a teenager , but that comes with growth and just accepting more of who I am now.
As a girl who has modeled , and competed in pageants the beauty world has always been around me. I love beauty , fashion , and all of those girly things but those things don't define me. Most of the time I don't wear makeup outside unless im going to a special event where I need to be a little more glam than usual. Competing in pageants I am used to seeing girls do about anything to "look" perfect. from Implants , perfect fake teeth , to spending thousands of dollars on a gown. I have never been the girl to do all of those things (maybe that's one reason why I haven't won the bigger pageants ). I have also seen girls do all of those things and be so disappointed and angry when they don't win. I compete for the challenge , seeing the growth and progress from pageant to pageant and possibly competing on TV to become Miss USA one day (which has its own long list of perks). I have had positive and negative experiences when it comes to pageants . I don't know if I will ever do them again but it has been a great pastime that I can look back on and be proud of.
Till next time .......
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